Longing for leave

He apologised to his mother that the letter was going to be shorter than usual – he had not begun writing it until 4 o’clock, because he had been too busy ‘building a new dugout – or, rather, burrowing underground’. He told her that, once they had heard they were not to be relieved immediately (thus giving them another 6, 12 or possibly 18 days in the mine), they had set to work on building themselves a ‘little bomb-proof dugout’; the Germans did shell ’round about occasionally’, and at least the new shelter would offer some sort of security when the bombs were dropping. And, he assured her, it was good exercise too.

Sherriff’s mother, Connie, in her early twenties, in the 1890s. By permission of the Surrey History Centre (Ref: 3813/14/1/2)

It was Pips’ birthday, and he told his mother that he could ‘imagine him opening his usual little packets containing socks, handkerchiefs, cigarettes etc, and I wish I could get something worth sending him – but I cannot see anything nice, until I have time to go into a larger town’. He had been enjoying the contents of the parcel he had received recently, which had brought back some fond memories: ‘ I had some of Bellchambers ginger cakes for tea, dear – they always remind me of that walk through the park towards Hampton Court’.

As normal in letters to his mother, he talked to her of his longing for leave:

‘I am looking forward to the great day when I shall start home more than anything I have looked forward to before, I think – I shall plan out everything that we can do so we won’t waste any time – of course I shall look forward to the rest as well – and although I hope I shall not absolutely run you off your legs I expect you will have to be ready for some long rides and walks, dear.’

He ended by noting that she must be enjoying her leave from her nursing position, and the extra hour in bed every morning – but ‘it must also be very nice to be getting £20 for your services when you go back – you must feel your services are valuable – I am so glad you have been successful, dear.’

[Next letter: 8 December]

A sigh of relief

Writing to Pips, he breathed a sigh of relief: ‘As my battalion has gone up to the front line today it looks as if we are to remain here at least another 6 days, or possibly for a longer period – 18 days maybe which will bring us up to Xmas.’

As they were likely to be staying for a little while they had decided to make improvements to their living arrangements, in particular by making an underground passage from their dugout, widening into a small room, which they hoped would be about 6 feet below ground level. He would feel much safer there than in the dugout at present, which was only covered by a corrugated iron roof and a layer of sandbags.

He thanked Pips for the parcel he had just received, with all his favourite goodies inside, and promised that he would go into town the next day to buy something a birthday present for him [Pips would be 59 on 7 December], not that there was much to choose from. At Xmas he intended to send him some short stories:

‘…not as a present, as they will probably be somewhat amateurish – but for you to keep for me – I am fond of writing stories but my only trouble is to have enough perseverance to finish them – I have tried several but have got tired of them in the middle and never finished them – but I will try and finish two or three – although meant to be serious they may offer you a little innocent amusement.’

The first page of one of Sherriff's earliest short stories. By permission of the Surrey History Centre (Ref: 2332/3/8/1)

The first page of one of Sherriff’s earliest short stories. By permission of the Surrey History Centre (Ref: 2332/3/8/1)

Thoughts of Xmas made his mind turn to his home in Hampton Wick – and the wares that would be displayed by the local traders: Sayers’ stock of Xmas cards ‘with Robins sitting on snow covered cottages with holly leaves all round’; the sweet-shop man with his ‘stiff open-work stockings full of sickly little white sweets’; and Winterbourne’s stock of ‘dates – almonds – all the other Xmas delicacies’. He would give everything in his possession, he wrote, to get 10 days leave stretching over Xmas. But he knew it was unlikely – which made it all the more frustrating that one of the RE officers who was going on leave had told him he didn’t really care much whether he did or not:

‘I suppose it’s the same the whole world over – those who have a thing do not find it so sweet as those who wish for it – but as each day goes by and I tick them off on my home made calendar it brings us nearer to the day my leave is due.’

[Next letter: 7 December]

Sherriff’s Xmas List

He told his mother that he had spent the evening before writing a long letter to his Auntie Ede [his father’s sister], and had also organised some hot water so he could give himself a ‘good hot wash-down all over…and a change of clothes’. He explained that, while he would usually go to the baths in the local town, ‘our battalion is now in the town where the baths are and I did not want to run against my Colonel’. He hoped that he would not be relieved before his battalion went back into the line the following day, which would mean at least an extra six days in the mine.He hoped that he would still be there at Christmas, confident that he, Gibson and one of the RE officers could have a ‘jolly time together’.

His servant Morris had gone in to the village to buy some things, pick up letters and parcels, and take his clothes to ‘an old French woman who does washing’. With three changes of pants, vests and shirts he was able to keep clean. Whenever he began to ‘itch’ he would change everything, thus keeping free of lice (although he also applied a good dose of Boots powder before putting his new clothes back on).

Fragment of letter to Mother, 5 December 1916. By permission of the Surrey History Centre (Ref: 2332/1/1/2/120)

Fragment of letter to Mother, 5 December 1916. By permission of the Surrey History Centre (Ref: 2332/1/1/2/120)

His thoughts were still on Xmas and he encouraged his mother not to spend too much on him:

‘There are one or two little things I should love if I knew they came from home – a small Xmas pudding, some dessert of some kind and such like things connected with Xmas and then there is one little thing I should like as a present dear, that is a tie pin…And then if you could make me a nice pair of long socks I think your work will be cut out to supply all my needs.’

In the meantime, he thanked her for the supply of parcels, containing all the ‘dear old things – ginger cakes and chocolate etc etc’ but cautioned her that, if sending weekly parcels was proving too much of a strain, she should send them only fortnightly: ‘There is something about your parcels that there is in no other men’s parcels – theirs look very poor besides yours, dear, you are an absolute expert at it.’

Censoring the men’s letters had taken him longer than expected, and it was now almost time to go on duty, but before closing the letter up he had time to note that ‘we had some tear shells over near us this morning – I had been out and coming back I got a whiff of it, which made my eyes water, but am alright now.’

[Next letter: 6 December]

A daily routine

Writing to Pips, Sherriff was worried: ‘I have just heard that a party of men are coming down to relieve the East Surreys, and I am now anxiously waiting to see whether an Officer comes with the party to relieve me – I have been waiting for the last least three days for this and I am hoping that they may only be sending me and leave me with the party…’.

Pips had asked him to account  for his normal working day. Although he had already written of it on several occasions, he took the trouble to do it again: breakfast at 8:30 (usually porridge, bacon and tea); lounge around a bit while Morris cleans his boots, but by 10:30am he had to be ready to inspect the men who had come from the line at 8:00:

‘I have to see that their boots are clean – trousers and tunics brushed – equipment and rifles clean and oiled – that they have washed and shaved – and if they are clean enough I dismiss them and they crawl into little burrows and apparently sleep till they are awakened to go on duty again.’

From about 11 o’clock he would write letters until lunch at 1 o’clock. In the afternoon it would be more letters, or reading, or ‘I may go for a good sharp walk along some of the trenches to get warm,’ and at 3 o’clock there was another party to inspect, then censoring the men’s letters until tea at 4 o’clock.

At 5:30 he would walk up to where his men were working at the mine, before going to the RE officers’ dugout, where he would remain, apart from the times he would go around seeing that his men were working well, usually every couple of hours or so. He would make a final round at 5:30 am, before heading home, returning to his own dugout around 6:30, where he would sleep until woken by Morris with breakfast a couple of hours later.

He spent much of his time in writing and reading, and wished he had some ‘big history books’ wit him, although he cautioned that there was no point in sending them  out to him, because he might not get them before he had to move. But he was hoping to get ‘one or two of those compact little classics that I am so fond of’. Guy Mannering had lasted six weeks, he noted and now he would like ‘something like Carlyle or Aristotle – something nice and solid’. Of the ‘lighter reading’ type, something like Scott’s The antiquary, or the two books Pips had given to Bundy – Rookwood [by William Harrison Ainsworth] and Star Chamber [John Southernden Burn]. But really, any good book by any good author would do.

With Christmas coming up he was happy to leave the voice of present to Pips, although books would be good, as would some of the Xmas magazines. His mother would be making him some socks ‘and several like comforts’, and with all of that taken together he thought he would be ‘quite happy out here – or at least as happy as I can expect to be.’

[Next letter: 5 December]

 

A village of rabbit burrows

Sherriff thanked his mother for the long letters he had just received from her: ‘I do think it good of you to write these long letters to me after you have been at the hospital from 8 in the morning till 8 at night.’ But she was now to get some time off, and he was sure she would appreciate it all the more because she had been working so hard. ‘Rest in bed till late,’ he told her, although ‘I should always go for a walk with Auntie…in the afternoons.’

He wished that one of the hot water bottles she was making was for him, although he was always quite warm in bed: ‘I wear my socks, pants and breeches, vest, shirt, leather jacket, woollen jersey, fleece lining, scarf and cap comforter. I get into my sleeping bag and cover over with two mackintoshes, so you can understand that I am kept warm alright.’ So warm, in fact, that he sometimes didn’t want to get out of bed – like this morning, when he had stayed there even while eaten his porridge and sardines on toast.

He told his mother about the walk around the trenches that he had taken the day before [the one he had told Pips about]: ‘It is interesting to peep down the dugouts and see here a little group of men sitting round a fire, playing a mouth organ, and in another one men lying down huddled up in blankets around fires and so on – it is a wonderful little village of rabbit burrows.’

She had asked if there was anything more she could send, and he told her that he doubted she could improve on her parcels, which were ‘really fine’. But as it happened there was one thing he should like: ‘and that is for you to make me a nice pair of long socks – almost stockings – to wear under my trench boots to come just up to my knees…it would be a nice thing for you to make while you are having your holiday and it would keep you quiet resting.’

Sherriff's sketch of his trench bots. By permission of the Surrey history Centre (Ref: 2332/1/1/2/119)

Sherriff’s sketch of his trench bots. By permission of the Surrey History Centre (Ref: 2332/1/1/2/119)

He still did not know if he was to be relieved, and the uncertainty was having an impact on his work, for he found it hard to take much interest in it with the possibility of a move still hanging over him:

‘if I knew I was in the job for another, say, 3 weeks, I should start away and make all sorts of improvements to my surroundings, but when you are told almost definitely that the relief is coming off and you wait and wait for a messenger with a note , wondering when you have got to go you get very restless…’

But he would know soon, for the Battalion was due to go back into the line in a few days, and if they had not relieved him by then they would not do so until they came back out again.

His mind was obviously on home again, and he asked how things were going there, noting that he had heard that ‘Mr Lang of the sweet shop’ had been called up (but was on sick leave), and wondering whether ‘Fred or Toby Sexton…or any other well-known celebrities’ had been called. Then he started reminiscing once more, picturing his mother sitting up in bed in her ‘violet coat’, or riding home at night: ‘I love to go over the happy days [before parting] one by one, and although it makes me feel sad, it gives me pleasure to realise how well we spent every day.’

[Next letter: 4 December]

Watching the ‘beastly days of war’ go by

He told Pips that he had heard nothing for sure yet, but he feared that he and the rest of the East Surrey party might be relieved at any time.  He was sufficiently saddened at the prospect of saying goodbye to the RE officers he had met (‘who have been so nice to us…’) that he had spent two successive nights on duty at the mine so he could be with them. He may have been saddened as well by not having had any letters for the past three days, because it was rather a long way to send a man every day [the Battalion was no longer in the front line, having been relieved by the 8/Queens on 30 November, but instead was in Brigade Reserve in Philosophe].

He hoped that Pips was still able to keep the garden and the chickens in hand, and sighed that he could ‘imagine the dear old garden exactly as it must look now, with the frost on the lawn and the black looking trees and everything looking just like Christmas.’ He also returned to the subject of his father’s war bonus, commenting that ‘I suppose you are practically clear of debt now, which must be a nice feeling’.

An advert for Macaonochie's 'delicious stew'.

An advert for Maconochie’s delicious stew.

For his own part, he had nothing new to report: ‘I am sorry I cannot put [in] any amusing incidents as I am still rather depressed at leaving this home we have here.’ Instead, he briefly rehearsed their daily menu – bacon & eggs in the morning, Maconochie’s at lunch (‘a tinned ration of meat, potatoes, beans, carrot etc [which] is very good – you just heat the tin up in hot water…and you have a fine stew all ready’), tea and bread and jam for tea, and a piece of steak for supper. As for entertainment – that was restricted to reading and writing, and taking the occasional walk about the trenches, which was what he was just about to do, to try to warm his feet up!

He knew not to hope for leave anytime soon – he still had another 24 days to go before his first 90 days were up – but at least that would mean that quarter of the year had gone by. It was frustrating not to know how long the war might last, but he had ‘made a chart of the days in one year – each day I carefully black in when it is done – one way of watching these beastly days of war go by’ [shades of Trotter in Journey’s End].

[Next letter: 3 December]

In sentimental vein

He was fretting again about possibly being relieved in the near future – something he viewed as ‘practically certain’, since he had been told as much by an Officer [though he does not say which one]. What annoyed him most, he told his mother, was that it might be because:

‘…our C.O. saw two of my men walking about untidy and he immediately concluded the whole party were like that – how I hate those two men for being such idiots as to be seen like that – it is perhaps also a bit my fault for not watching them more – but when it is in my power to make men’s time easier I love to do so as the poor men have such a hard time usually.’

Contemplating the possibility of his return to the Battalion seems to have sparked another sentimental episode in him, and he again reminisced about the walks he and his mother had taken together, as well as confessing that the nostalgic recollections of their last hours together had resulted in him ‘nearly [dropping] tears all over my last letter to you’:

‘I know it is very silly of me, but the more I think how hard you worked to make every moment of my time happy before I left, the more I feel so helpless to repay it properly: how you did everything in your power to make that leave one long run of happiness I know only too well, and how brave you were on the last day when you were trying to keep my spirits up…’

Dick Webb, from a cutting in Sherriff's scrapbook. By permission of the Surrey History Centre (Ref: 2332/9/12)

Dick Webb, from a cutting in Sherriff’s scrapbook. By permission of the Surrey History Centre (Ref: 2332/9/12)

Briefly turning to practical matters he enquired after his closest school friend, Dick Webb, about whose wounding his mother had included a cutting in an earlier letter: ‘Do you know how he is getting on?’ he asked. ‘I must write to Mr Webb and ask: even although he were wounded seriously I can’t help thinking him lucky to get home.’ [Sherriff was, at this point, sadly unaware that his old friend had died of his wounds in hospital on 10 October].

But before closing up the letter, there was a final burst of sentimentality:

‘What I want to try and tell you its how happy you have always made everything for me – no one could ever have had such a happy childhood, boyhood, office days and Army days as I did whilst you were always so near me to cheer me up and encourage me in everything, and I have always owed the greater part of my happiness to you dear, as a companion in walks, as an adviser when in trouble and as a comforter when I have been ill, and now is the time, when I am separated from you for the first time, that I look back and appreciate all this more than I have ever done before.’

H hoped that the time would soon come when he could return home and repay her by making her ‘as happy as possible’.

[Next letter: 2 December]

Two months today I set foot on Gallic soil…

Sherriff was in puckish mood when he wrote home to Pips: ‘Two months today I set foot on the Gallic soil…and my appearance in the war area seems in no way to have altered the situation’. He then went on, in jovial style, to congratulate Pips on the 10% bonus he had just received in his job at Sun Insurance: ‘You must be a millionaire now – I suppose you wash in white wine and give banquets to Mr Joseph and Wren every night: it means £40 odd, doesn’t it? Just enough to buy a motor bicycle.’

He was less upbeat in writing to his mother, recalling the day they had parted, those two months before, and saying that he:

‘…now realised almost for the first time how it [was] worse for you than for me when we parted…I had got so much to occupy my attention when I got to Folkestone with my luggage and tickets, and the rush for the boat and the journey on the sea, that before I knew where I was I was miles from home and [had] more things to occupy my attention – whilst you, dearie, had nothing novel to occupy your thoughts. I can picture, now, the last little glimpse I had of you out of the carriage window as the train left…’

A photo probably taken shortly before embarkation. By permission of the Surrey History Centre (Ref: 2332/6/4/2)

A photo probably taken shortly before embarkation. By permission of the Surrey History Centre (Ref: 2332/6/4/2)

He carried on in this vein of reminiscence for most of the rest of the letter, telling her how much he had enjoyed the periods of leave he was given before embarking for France – the ten days ‘pending gazette’ [waiting, after passing his officer exams, to be attached to a Regiment], and the 48 hours immediately before embarkation – and in particular the walks they had taken in Oxshott woods, in Bushy Park around the Plantation, and in Richmond Park (‘Do you remember how we got absolutely every ounce out of the last days – I am afraid I used to walk you off your feet, dearie, but I know you never minded…’). And in the evenings, after returning from his afternoon rambles with his mother, he would proceed to accompany Pips on long walks, ‘stumbling along in the dark’, which were more enjoyable than ‘all the Grand Theatres put together’.

He congratulated his mother on the ‘compliment’ which the Hospital had paid her, by offering to pay for her services – £20 and all expenses paid: ‘it is very heartening to be told you are of some use…I only wish I was the man who was specially under your care – lucky man to have such a nice nurse.’

Before signing off he thanked her (as he had Pips and Bundy) for the ‘absolutely ideal parcel’ he had received – full of all of his favourites – almonds and raisins, ginger, jam roll and chocolate – ‘all the things I like more than anything else’. He considered himself very lucky to receive such fine parcels – much better than those of many of the other men, whose families put in ‘silly things like tinned sardines’, which were readily available in France. They were probably trying their best – ‘but…none have reached your standard, dear’.

[Next letter: 1 December]

Soldiers on the floor

Writing to Pips, he rehearsed the concerns that he had expressed to his mother the day before:

‘I have been rather busy just lately getting the men of the East Surreys cleaned up – our new Commanding Officer is always hovering round and has several times swooped down on one of my working party because they are dirty – unfortunately they are a very poor selection of men, specially sent on these working parties by their Company Commanders to get rid of them, so you can understand it is almost impossible to keep them clean. I am afraid as the Commanding Officer has spoken to them several times for being dirty he will withdraw them and send a new lot shortly (probably me included).’

He would be loathe to go because he found the work of the Engineers more interesting than  that of the Infantry, and in addition he was enjoying the quieter times in his dugout: ”When I am alone in my dugout I can read and write better than when [I] am sitting at a table with about 6 others talking 16 to the dozen.’ He had been writing some short stories, in fact,  just before the C.O. arrived, and had not yet had the chance to get back to them.

Model British infantry soldiers open fire on the French, in the opening scene of the 1977 remake of The Four Feathers. From https://wargamingmiscellanybackup.wordpress.com/category/wargames-on-film-and-tv/

Model British infantry soldiers open fire on the French, in the opening scene of the 1977 remake of The Four Feathers. From https://wargamingmiscellanybackup.wordpress.com/category/wargames-on-film-and-tv/

The weather now had that ‘chilly, misty feeling in the air’ that showed that Xmas was coming, and he could imagine being in London, on his way home, hurrying to Waterloo along Regent Street and the Haymarket. He would far rather spend Xmas quietly, ‘with a few RE officers, than with a crowd’. But most of all he hoped that he could all spend next Xmas at home with everyone, and that they could enjoy all the old customs: ‘soldier battles on the floor, stockings full of mysterious shapes, stamp albums and cards and billiards and all the other things that make the winter evenings so dear at home’.

He had been chatting with one of the RE officers, who shared an enjoyment for cycle touring and in Roman remains. They had talked for hours at the mine about Roman roads and many other things. It was good, he felt, to meet someone with the same interests as his often – and few seemed to share his interest in ‘Antiquarian’ matters.

[Next letters: 29 November]

In the bad books

He began today’s letter by apologising to his mother for not having written in several days – partly because [as he had previously told Pips] he had been very busy, but also because he had come down with a bout of ‘Influenza’. He had not wanted to go no duty the previous night, but once he did so the night air had ‘braced him up’, and walking to the Quartermaster today had continued his progress, although he still had a slight cold in the head and throat. He assured his mother that she needn’t worry about him, and that he would certainly of to see the Doctor if he felt it necessary.

He had been busy because of his Battalion’s new commanding officer, Lt Col Swanton:

‘[He] is so energetic that he comes round on the quiet and sees men of the East Surreys attached to my party in a dirty condition – the reason being that they have just come back from working, and also that the selection of men sent to me are all the worst, because they want to get rid of them from the Battalion. Of course, I am blamed for their dirtiness and have probably got in his bad books, if so I expect I will go back to the Company soon…[but] I cannot tell a bit what is to happen – I must simply wait and see and trust that what does happen is for my good.’

1916 Christmas Annuals

1916 Christmas Annuals

Bundy had sent him a copy of the magazine Winter’s Pie, for which he was very grateful, and it made him think about a few of the other Xmas Annuals he should like to receive -such as Holly Leaves, and Pears’ Annual – if his mother could arrange it. He told her, as he had Pips a couple of days before, that he hoped he would stay where he was until at least Xmas, since he would much rather spend it with the RE than with his Battalion.

He ended by promising to write more assiduously in the days ahead, and by stoically accepting that the trying time he had faced recently – due to the Influenza and his C.O. – was probably just the price he had to pay for the easy days he had enjoyed earlier.

[Next letter: 28 November]